Growth in Tough Times

It’s been awhile. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve put, “write blog post” on my calendar this month. I could give you all the excuses in the world for not writing this until now. I’ve moved, started a new job, currently in a phase of depression, I’m exhausted, Daisie (duh!) and the list goes on and on. 

Each day I look at that list and see this task unchecked, I cringe and shame myself on how I am not moving forward with my actual goals and dreams. I’m simply surviving and getting by. Working my 9-5, clean, eat, sleep and repeat. Then, of course, my weekends are consistently filled with events, to do’s and other things that are probably not too important. 

What I’m trying to say is I’ve been punishing myself for being human. I’ve completely ignored the reality of this challenging season I’m in and I’ve forgotten my empathetic sense of self simply by not giving myself grace and compassion. 

Self compassion has been something that comes up in every single therapy session I have, and it’s for a good reason. It’s probably something I am in need of most this season and it’s honestly been a struggle for me this past month. 

Are you in a busy and/or challenging season? If so, have you given yourself grace and allowed yourself to make mistakes and fall off course? I am most definitely in a challenging season, but here’s what I am so thankful for. 

GROWTH. 

All this time, I’ve been surviving and shaming myself, I’ve actually been growing. Yes, growing and improving myself and I didn’t even know it. Change is uncomfortable. That’s why its called growing pains, right?

So far in this tough season, I’ve tried things I used to fear and dread. I’ve made smarter choices financially and emotionally. I’ve officially blocked my super terrible ex. (that was a big one for me!) I’ve even branched out and started watching Schitt’s Creek. (I know it’s about damn time) My point is…

There’s beauty in every tough season. The hard part is truly grasping how beautiful the pain can be as you grow into the person you are becoming. 

Keep going, friends. You are strong and you are loved. 

That is all for now.

Take care, 

MM